7 January 2020

  My head hurts so bad.  I have been unable to read, draw, or paint.  Every time I do so my mind splitting headaches ramp up, severe nausea ensues, and I develop terrible motion sickness.

     I started a new drug, venetoclax, yesterday.  It has a fifty percent efficacy.  I believe if this does not work it might be time to give up the ship.

     I have spent the last several days doing nothing but lying in bed trying to limit the pain and nausea, and have 2 January 2020

     I talked to my parents today.  My dad had just come in to warm his fingers from shoveling snow.

     Sadly, the snowstorm stayed south of us.

     I sat down with Jason Halda (a fellow prisoner) this morning and finished a sketch of him I started yesterday.  I still think I need to go back and work on the nose.

     The idea is to use it as source material for a collage.

been unable to do what I enjoy doing.  That is not living, that is existing.  The idea is to live.

     I have not been able to work on my art.